Life...
Life.. a wonderful garden filled with roses, or just life filled with struggles?? I've been again back to my EMOness.. frm Sat.. after hearing some stuff that i wished didn't happen.. Why does things always happen to me.. Ppl say it happens for a reason.. but it happens to just make me more sad.. God, i'm sure u dun wanna see me crying.. that why create such a situation that u hav rite now.. Things in this issue always has never been right for me i guess.. 18yrs n counting... And now somehow or rather i just feel that i'll just be like that till god knows when... Maybe love was just not meant to be for me.. or why would i be brooding over this over n over again.. well guys... maybe there is something that u need to knoe about...
In this case i'm actually a veri sensitive person.. though how rough n tough i may be seen on the outside.. com'on la.. i'm aso a gal rite.. haha.. though not many ppl address me by that gender.. haha.. I mean.. when it comes to relationships in my way of how i look at it is that.. I muz find someone whu luvs me 4 whu i am.. n whether is that person willing to tolerate me n my nonsense its up to them.. i mean maybe i juz look at this issue in this way.. I've nvr been so emotionally taken down by such an issue..(alamak i dun even hav to think of such a thing happening to me until knw.. HAIYO!) I thought that flopping my maths in 'O' levels was the worst i could ever cry about.. well maybe not.. Its simply weird for me to be in this situation.. Ok honestly ppl... i've never felt like that before.. Singlehood must have been the best experience i've ever had.. Never happier each day.. waking up with no worries.. not being afraid of anyone... (execpt mum) live life just the way i want to and not being told how i should live my life.. MAN!! those were the days which i hope that will come back to me.. I'm not saying that people who are in a relationship are not happy.. just that when u are single, u just have that certain happiness by yourself and that freedom in which onli you can control.. I do agree that at times.. U will feel lonely and u start thinking why is there no one beside you who can share your happiness and sorrows with.. yea.. it can be abit disheartening at times.. when u see tons of couples going out together and u are like an idiot staying at home and watching soccer.. Com'on Rekha... get yourself a life..!!
Maybe it was just time for me to be in this situation... Things happen for a reason.. and i think that's why i'm in this sitaution now.. If u dun like the 'real me' then why bother tellin me that u like me and just stop cheating yourself and let go of everything.. Wads the point of holding on when you knoe nothing is going to happen.. Whu ever created memories man?? Y do people have sumthing called feelings.. can't we all just be robots.. with no feelings for anyone.. Sighs.. now i understand what people are going through on the other side of their life.. After all that happened you come n tell me that u still like me blah blah blah.. well get yourself a life.. If u are not looking 4 a gurl like me than just let it go will ya! stop telling me that u will wait 4 me n you can never forget those times wen we were frends.. There are like a million gals out there whu ahve your kinda taste.. well if u juz can't accept me for whu i am then i'm sorry..
peace out...
